Hell with the sickness

I'm sick again, sick like hell, not that it's a new thing. I'm just sick of being sick and being tied to the bed. This has a big impact on my school grades and I am disappointed. I just finished rising some of my grades and I got sick and had to stop going to school. I think I have pneumonia , but my doctor never tells me my diagnosis. She described me some pills that are used in recovery from pneumonia , but that doesn't really mean that I have it. Can't wait to get better. Today is all about eating cabbage soup and lossing some weight. I will take some vitamines so I could faster get well, but nothing else.
P.s. My post is about sickness because it's a mask for my family that love to sit around me when I'm blogging and read the first two sentences. I want to cry , but I can't . I just heared that my grandfather is dying. I love him and I am sad but I just can't bring myself to cry. Why are my eyes dry? When did I become so heartless?